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You might want to reconsider asking me out, or me being your girlfriend..

           For, I’m lazy, spender,  not that smart, clumsy, forgetful, foolish, emotional, over expressive, blunt, not pretty like models , careless , demanding, & a baby , Also, I don’t like my family. 

Yet, I have a job, & started working as a cashier at the age of 8. I buy my own things, I don’t want your money or your gifts. I’m not smart when it comes to school, but I’m a quick learning & I’m understanding & wise when it comes to a much deeper prospective of life. I’m actually really good at shooting hoops, throwing a football, swinging a bat, playing tennis. I forget stupid stuff , but I’ll remember phone numbers by heart, & promises I made & the little moments that mean the world to me. I’m silly and kiddish, when I want to be. I laugh at myself, a lot actually.. and I can take a joke. I’ve never took anything up the ass, really. I’m open with the way I feel, & I’m not afraid to tell you. I’m not afraid to show it.  At the same time, I don’t let certain people in my life to carry the burden of me crying.. or seeing me hurt. Last thing I would ever do, is cry in front of you. I tell people a little too much, TMI. I’m sorry if you feel it’s awkward, I just take things that are not of importance to me lightly.. but I don’t realize what it is between you & I that ‘s important to me may not be the case for you. I’m honest, because I’m scared the lies will be the death of me. I will tell you the truth, even if it hurts, because I think it’s best you know. I’m just average looking, but I do my best to FEEL my best. Not for you. Or anybody else. I don’t care what people say to me, as long as the people I love still care for me.. nothing else matters. Drama free bby ! I know what I want, therefore I do what I need to get there. If you are in my way, I can’t promise I will let you block me forever. I won’t ask you for gifts, candy, flower, shiny things, all I want is you , your heart, your mind, your thoughts . Things of you that are free, no money can buy. If I want nice things,  I will buy it for myself. No fancy dinners, that you work too hard to afford. Baby, with me ; I don’t need none of that.. if we do have it great. If not, that’s fine. As long as I can have your love, I don’t need expensive fish . -.- I don’t like fish. I’m a baby sometimes, in some areas where I’m afraid of the dark, & I’m scared to pee after midnight.. and I have a blankie that my grandma made me since I was a baby that I won’t throw away.  Yet, I’m independent.. I won’t ask you to hold my hand , I don’t need you to do things for me, I can do it on my own. Family, wasn’t family to me. I was taught to grow up & take care for myself.. My parents weren’t there & still aren’t. Yeah, they’re body exists… but their minds don’t. I am the adult here, for the past year or so. I give my mother money, when she gambles it all away because she doesnt’ have a job. She has never had one. Never worked a day in her life. I take care of her, I clean up her mess when she leaves her family broken hearted all the time. I’m the one that hold responsibility, while she just holds the title of an adult. My dad is just simply immature, & selfish. Lying & decieving man, he could be a great actor. Honest. Stole my money, his OWN DAUGHTER’S money. Thanks dad. Your 48 with a job, I’m 16. . with a job. I’m not 18, you are still suppose to be resposibile of me. But with my family, that’s how I am. With yours, I will treat with all respect as I do with my parents. Even though, I say I don’t like them.. I wouldn’t help them out as much as I do. I wouldn’t give them money, if I didn’t care. I do. I just tell myself I don’t. With your family, if you were my boyfriend. I will love your family, because they are the reason you are in this world. They gave me you as a gift. They are Santa Clause to me .  <3 


  1. shehlovee posted this

Read between the lines..