May 2013
Most people that think they know me, think I’m heartless.. because I don’t show hurt, and I don’t show pain. I hide it deep in my insecurities, and shove it down inside me where no one could ever find it. So I don’t cry, and I don’t sweat, not in front of people at least. I do it so well, that people believe it. That I completely do not give one fck about...
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April 2013
I want there to be someone who would take care of me in case I couldn’t take care of myself not where I have to take care of someone when I can barely take care of myself
The moment where you question whether someone is...
Don’t get it twisted . I’m not always sad or unhappy. I’m only unhappy when I blog because this is my way to vent . When I’m not posting it means I’m happily enjoying life
I’m not myself anymore .. I feel a part of me missing that I can’t seem to fill. Something is wrong and I don’t know what. I’ve been having thoughts that I just don’t know what to think of it.. Or how to comprehend. I’m stressed and unhappy because something is missing .. I feel it but I can’t pinpoint it.
Sometimes I’ll get a flashback from the past. This distinct memory of a feeling I once had, and the same feeling rushes through me. In my head, is like part of a scene in a movie playing back in my mind. This warm feeling of love I once felt, rushes through my body as if someone had just shot me with a dose of love running through my veins. Those moments where I feel this memory, I feel an...
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I am feeling as empty as one can get.. I think I have issues with abandonment and lonliness, because whatever it is right now.. Well, it’s killing me.
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March 2013
I wish I could completely forget all the things that have happened in the past, and just start fresh. New. I just want to be a different person, because I hate the person that I am.
Still a part of me that's missing....
Ever had your heart set on something ? That moment, where you think to yourself that you’ve got it all figured out. That life is exactly where you sought it to be, exactly where you want it to be.. or at least what you’re aiming for. Let me tell you, I have. I have about a million times. I’ve thought, ” Hey, this is it. this is IT. ” This is the one, or this...
I think he’s wonderful. I think he’s amazing. I think he gets me more than I get myself sometimes. He knows when I’m sad, he makes me happy when I’m hurt. He’s strong for me, when I’m weak. He’s here for me when I feel all alone.
I’m afraid that this is just to good, this has got to be an illusion. This isn’t real, and if it is…...
I just want to sit and cry.
I feel defeated.
I want someone to teach me, someone who could help me grow. I want to grow into a better person, be a better person, or be the best that I can possibly be. I want to be free of anger, pain, heartache. I want to be loved, and more. I don’t want to envy, or doubt or hate. I want to feel no regrets, no hurt.
I just want to be happy.
A whole bunch of contradiction.. because I'm a...
I don’t like being alone. I hate not having company now.. I catch myself thinking negatively. I catch myself in misery. I let my insecurities eat me up, and I can go on and on with a long list of things that are not going right. Not the way I want them too, and I wonder.. Will I ever have a moment or time in my life where everything is just perfect ? Or well there always be a...
I wish I could move forward, but so much is holding me back.
Sometimes if you take a step back and a deep breath, you start to see things differently..
I just want to curl up in a ball and cry. I don’t know what to do, and I’m constantly reminded of all the things I don’t do right. Constantly being reminded of my flaws, and my wrong doings. I can’t escape it. I can’t do anything, and it’s all built up to the point that any moment I have of silence in my head to think, I just want to burst in tears. I take a...
Because you’ll fall so completely in love that your lives FOREVER change, for the good and the bad. You’ll picture everything in your heads just to have our hopes dashed with words and actions. You’ll fall completely in love and would put his life and happiness before your own; what do you get in return? Lies and hurtful words, and worst of all no words, you’ll get left out...
February 2013
& you just have to question whether or not what...
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I gets high off your love..
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For the things I have no control over, I trust in you. I hope you have this all figured out for me, and that it will all turn out for the better. I hope that the past won’t continue on with it’s bad juju.. I hope that things will turn around. I’m hoping for the best. I’m going to ride out this downfall because I refuse to be weak, I refuse to let it ruin me.
I was standing in line for a restaurant tonight. It was about an hour wait.. I was standing behind a girl and a guy. She’s probably the same age as me if not a year or two older.. I overheard her conversation because she was speaking so loud. ” I bought a book for $20, she stole it from me.. and sold it to someone in front of me. I hate her. I mean, I used to look up to her but...
I can’t promise perfection, but I can promise love.
Some thing is wrong with me, I feel it.
I get irritated easily, and then I’m easily amused. I find myself lost in my thoughts and when things pop into my mind that I don’t want to think about… I feel furious, annoyed, mad, sad, unhappy. I feel like I have no control over my life. Where I want to be, isn’t where I’m at. I’m stuck. I don’t know...
i can’t wait until im older and have someone who loves me and i get to cuddle and kiss them everyday and fall asleep in their arms every night and wake up in the morning and see their face and know i’m loved unconditionally by someone and be happy with my life for once
Love . What is it ? What is it really ? How do you know if it’s real or not ? How do you know if what is said to you is true ? How do you know it holds it meaning ? How do you know what to call it of what you’re feeling ? How do you know when you’re feeling it ? I wish there was a measurement, or some kind of detector that could tell...
I’m trying to understand this new dynamic between us. it’s not as simple as ‘you either want me or you don’t’. i know that. I hate that. Keeping you in my life might kill me, but letting you go will.
Any guy who thinks he is playing a real woman is actually playing himself. A real woman is a great gain. So that is his loss.
Love doesn’t demand to be loved back, but it doesn’t mean it exists to be taken for granted.
It’s beautiful when you find someone that is in love with your mind. Someone that wants to undress your conscience and make love to your thoughts. Someone that wants to watch you slowly take down all the walls you have built around your mind and let them inside.
When you lose somebody, you think you have lost the whole world as well.. but this is not the way things turn out in the end. Eventually, you pick yourself up and look out the window and once you do, you see everything that was there before you thought the world ended is out there, still. There are the same apple trees, the same song birds, and over our heads, the same very sky that shines like...
People don’t look at your personality first. People judge you automatically by your looks and then try to get to know your personality, but the second they don’t like your looks, they don’t get to know you.
There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving, no matter how hard they try. I wouldn’t expect you to understand that or even believe it, but trust me, there are some loves that don’t go away. & Maybe that makes them crazy, but we all should be lucky enough to end up with somebody who has a little of that insanity, someone who never lets go, someone...
The lines are so crossed and blurred at this point that I don’t know what I want.
